the guy is frm french..he is mr.pierre louis..i noe him wen i attend sumtingz in smi..30 of may 2009..

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haiz...holi starting ler..duno tiz time my holi cn i sucess 2 d wat ever i plan 2 d in tiz holi..i hope i cn do it ler..haiz..b4 holi i gt bk my result r..wat??i cnt acept my result r..y so worst wan..the result so suckz...i nvr gt b4 r..whr my brain gone??i duno hw 2 face my parentz wif tiz kind of result r..i jz fel vry shy on myself..trial ald so near..bt i stil lik duno everythingz r..i du1 fail in mt spm r..if nt i duno hw my future ll b..i wana b a OL r..i wan b a white collar women..nt a blue collar er..wat i say..wat i wish..al oso uselez wan..cz nid myself 2 d it..no ppl cn hlp me..i m the wan jz cn hlp myself..

tiz pic tat in jj wen sat..

uh??so high..shy..fish...

2gy is the laz day b4 holi..lik normal lik ta ..g 2 skul at early morning the den study lu..haiz...sienz r...our skul plan tat 2dy ll hv a mini concert..wat??!!!mini concert??suan la...sure vry sienz wan la...yao fa mou la...afta gotong-royong..v al line up n enter the hal..omg!!y so hot geh..rili cham r..so hot stil nid 2 enter in 2 a box n gv ppl torture r..uh??bt tiz time so diffrent leh..gt mani program oso nt bad r..al of us so high r...al the studentz oso clapin while the concert is goin on..the whole hal ful wif clapin xsepcialy the tcers r singing..pn.laksa gt sing r..i so unbliveable lo..haha..the son so nice r..bt her singing.....swt....=.=''...den wen pn.rasilah..jz g on the stage..uh??al the pplk focuz of her r..she cn say is my favorz tcer..so..i sure ll gv sum response geh..hehe..omg!!her singsing so nice lo...den i suggest v al write pn.rasilah aku cinta padamu..den v al find paper n write lu..yor...so rush r..cz scsre nt enuf time r..den v write jo n show up lu..uh??gv pn.yap saw dou jo..she ask us to stand up er..so fish lo..bt v oso gt stand up ls..yor..i take mu ma..i take terbalik jo r..ahhhhh!!!so fish la!!!al the ppl focus of me wor...i take terbalik jo...bt i nt realise at al.....=.=""...........swt.....

my frenz r alive??

2dy is mon..lik normal lik tat g 2 skul lu..2dy gt sumting let me fel tat frenz..u al r alive..i told them wat hapen on me wen sat..thy al so k me..thy stil say if nx time..g gai gai agn..thy ll c me g hum 1st..den thy oli cal their parentz cum n fetch them..wen i heard..i duno wat 2 say..my heart..suden so warm..tat i lng time din fel tat ald..the fel is cum bac ald..bt tiz time is frm my frenz..so diffrent..bt...i du wish thy rili d so..cz i du1 b a burden 2 them..i ll fel sry wan r..i du1 ma fan ppl r..if thy rili d so i prefer stay at hum ler..i noe thy al oli wan k n 100% tat i m in save condition al the time...bt lik tat i ll rili ll fel tat i m a burden 2 them r...haiz....i rili fel tat i rili a tou fu r...haiz...wat a uselez me r..2dy i gt bac my eco exam paper...omg!!!fail r...y cnt acept lo..y ll fail geh wor..i nvr fail my eco b4 at al gah..tiz is the 1st time r...haiz...if my eco oso fail den my otherz sub..no nid say la..sure ll more worst wan la...haiz.....hw 2 gt a gud result in my cuming spm if con lik tat...haiz....

我喜欢下雨天了。。

我喜欢下雨时的滴答声，也喜欢清新的感觉。
站在一遍新的大地上，让凉爽，略带潮湿的风迎面吹在我脸上是我在雨后最喜欢做的事。
但是，那确是我最讨厌的天气。
你说是因为下雨时没办法和我见面所以才会讨要下雨天的。
但是你永远都不会知道，下雨天对我的意义。。我总是借着他来把自己的委屈和伤口洗掉。
难道你从不发觉下雨后我总是神采奕奕的吗？？
我受了好多的委屈却不敢开口对你说。
因为你并不会安慰人，何苦再让自己承受才找人诉苦却不得要领的痛苦吗？？
所以我悬着离开你的身边。
直到你需要我的时候才在你的身边出现。。。
让我当一次天使吧~~
虽然我们的感情已不再那么浓厚了，但是我还是会在你需要我的时候及时出现的。。
以前都是你当我的守护神，现在，使时候换我当你的幸运女神了吧？？

i hate tat!!

agn...n agn..i hlp her 2 tipu her parentz 4 her 2 g out..i waz awake by a cal tat make me angry...y she owaz mz lik tat...yor...plz...du con lik tat ok r..nowaday..the sosial..n economic so worst..if sumting hapen hw wor..u wan me hw 2 told ur parentz..say i duno at al r??i ask u d so r??i nt du1 hlp u r..i noe..i und y u wan d so..cz u du1 let ur parentz noe abt tat..my fren r...ur parentz ald saw ur bf b4 wat..wat u sked of...mayb u let them noe ll beter much more r..if u con lik tat let ur parentz noe ald more worst r...tel them la...haiz.....

wat a unforgetable saturday..

haiz...al waz out of my imagine...wat i plan..wat i hope al oso nt done...i dam disapointed r..other frm tat i nearly gone...i nearly kena rape..lucky...i din i jz kena fei li..bt tat al enuf sked me...2dy 12pm..i g jj wif my frenz...omg late ald..i stil sked i ll b the laz wan 2 arrived..bt i m the 1st..wen arrived i rush 2 mcd..bt no ppl leh..tiz time cham la..whr thy g jo..i vry nervous..walk n wait..rili no ppl cum leh..den i g n reload r..wtf..rm10..digi is finished..i m sry..den nvm la..i g popular la..c n met them mou la..HAIZ...thy nt thr...nvm ler..alone jiao alone la..den i g n read my favor bukz...jz afta few minz..yy cal me ler..lucky..i pick den thy ask whr m i..i told them i at popular r..den thy say thy ll cum n find me..HUH..lucky er..den wen thy cum i fel vry hapi geh..bt...thy say me...BU PEI HE THEM..omg..dam hurt lo..
den i say den i g hum lo..den thy say ok wor..
wtf r..the whole journey cn say nt as hapi as i tink r...sad n no mud r..until i g n ply tat dance machine den i oli fel beter..afta v g n watch movie lu..kai xin bf treat us popcorn n coco..he say r..if cnt finish nid pay bac wor..gam dou cn wor..yor..ok lu..i du sked cz i sure i cn finish wan..the movie nt bad ler..funi n realistic er..5pm lu..pei2 n yy is the 1st hu leave..den kai xin lu..
at laz jz leave me n lv..den i os leave ler..i g n wait my mum outside er..haiz....y mt mum hvn cum geh..so lng wan gah..haiz...half an hour hav paz la..wan me wait hw lng wor..me stil gt tt ltr gah..5.30pm ler..nvm ler..du wait ler..i walk bac beter la..den i walk lu..1st time walk alone leh..vry hot r..hate r..mani sweat la..omg..the mr.sun du burn so hot ok r..dam hot r..omg..gt a malay man start 2 4low mw ald..i so sked..if sumting hapen on me..no ppl cn hlp me r..around me oso no ppl..even an ant r..wen he 4low til a plyground..he rili cum near me..i dam sked..bt i din cry..cz i noe i cnt cry..if nt tatz ll b more worst r..hw r..hw r..wat should i d nw r..shout??no ppl shout 4 wat wor..haiz...he cekik me against a tree..tiz time i gone ler...cham la...ahhh!!!!!!he put hiz hand inside.....omg!!g away r....!!i take the chance 2 bite him..den i take the chance 2 run away wen he waz in pain..i run..i run...lucky he din chase anymore...if nt....wat ll hapen i duno hw 2 imagine anymore.....den i con walk hum...half way..my mum is cum...finaly..my mum cum la....my mum dad oso noe ald..thy vry nervous..kep askin watz waz hapen on me...i told them und thy forcing....

uh..pei yi so q er..

hehe..me..jia yean..mei rong n vivian

haha..tiz is the invitation frm lv tat g 2 jj tiz sat..funi la her..

my claz n i..

hehe..2dy is fri..hapi er..cz 2mr cn g gai gai wif al my crazy frenz..thy r..yuen ying..lv..pei2 n kai xin..v r goin 2 watch the 9 in the musuem 2 er..hehe..hapi hapi..duno y lng lng time g gai gai once more hapi than owaz g er..my purse yao nid hurt agn ler...cham..2dy r..gt bit nt so hapi cz i waitin 2 get bk my bi paper..bt thr r a tcers' meting wor..haiz...suan la..wait nx time agn lo..starrtin frm 2dy..i ll b vry bz ler..bz 4 diner9..bz 4 canteen day..canteen day my group ll hv 15 ppl er..so mani...bt..duno cn v d our bez anot leh..bt i ll try la..hehe..tiz time cham la..cz lv n yuen ying n pei2 n suet li al of them geh relation nt as gud as b4 ald..haiz..i du1 argue hapen around me la..i owaz advise them..yor..nw v ald f5 la..wat 2 argue wor..v al cn owaz 2gether geh time nt mani ald oso..al oso frenz..wat 4 2 argue make until u du lik me..me du lik u r..wat 4 2 make until lik tat wor..haiz...my frenz...tink wider leh..i rili hope i cn d my bez leh..n i nid u al geh co-operate wan r..du gam anymore ler..tink sumting hapi nt gud meh..d once bad ting oli ma tat nt mean al oso bad wan la..yor..5s11 let's us gambateh 4 our claz ler..i noe..v cn wan if al co-operate..hehe..

haha..tiz is afta fashion show..al my clothes on my bed..

haiz....i vry lik tiz watch la..bt spoil jo la..haiz..suan...T.T..

omg..du eat my ice-cream r..hehe..

hehe..al tiz r my dear bukz..dam nice r..hehe..

har??rili??

har???i tat ture r??hard 2 blive lo...du lie me ok r..recently wen i on9..he sure thr..tatz normal..i noe..bt he say he waitin 4 me 2 on9??uh??funi lo..hw cum??me n him dam lez chat geh lo..hw...cum...he ll tel me...he gt fel 2 me 1....??if say lik tat me ald gt fel 2 me over 1 yr jo leh...rili funi n shock lo...if frm otherz ppl den i cn blive r..bt...he???is he plyin r??bt he told me tat ture....i rili cnt acept at al..hard 2 blive oso..he ask 4 chance...bt i told him i du1 pak tou..he du blive..he kep con say hw cum...yor..jz cum la ..yor....i du luv u at al tim..hw 2 acept u la..n he nt my dream man..i rili cnt wif him..jz ll spoil my future..i said i du1 b ply gal anymore...so...i won acept u....du chase anymore..........v jz cn b fren...uh??tiz time i rili noe hw 2 ignore ppl jo leh....omg....du kep on sayin u rili luv me la...........i du luv u ok r..

let al g...gt sumting new..cn i??

my mid year exam al paz ald..nw my exam paper is geting bk 1 by 1..haiz...wen i saw bk my exam paper...i ll tink y i du study b4 leh..study vry hard meh.??nt r..y i so lazi leh....suan la..al ald paz..my trial..my spm..ald geting sooner n sooner...haiz...i du1 to fail r..i du1 gt the result lik pmr anymore r..cz spm ll affect my future..i m a ppl hu ik perfect othough i m nt per fect..i alwiz imagine i hu nice hw greatful my future ll b..bt ll tat bcum ture..i rili hope tat cn..bt cn i afford r??tat the ques r...cn i b success..??i promise myself agn..i ll strt study agn start frm nx wek..i hope i rili cn make it tiz time..cz ald nt more time 4 me waste anymore..i mz take the time n d sumting useful 4 my future..my dubai...tat i wish 2 enjoy myself 1 day....

hu should i blive in??u??he??her??

in tiz world rili gt mani type of ppl...frenz oso nt the ppl tat i rili cn blive in..frenz oso cn btray me..frm startin i rili blive in u wan..i totaly blive in u..bt...i noe u btray me..bt i din tel u..cz i du hope i rili c wrg ppl lo..me ald c wrg mani ppl ald..i din tink u oso lik tat..bt u rili let me disapointed...i blive u..so i gv u my msn pasword..bt u chg al my tingz..block al my frenz...me oso hope al tiz al so nt real...al oso i dream..al oso i c wrg..bt...tatz nt..al oso gt bukti..i cnt tipu myself anymore..i duno y u wan d al tiz on me..i noe..u luv him..u admire him..bt..me n him ald brk up so lng time ago..u d so gt wat benefit 2 u..cn u tel me....i rili duno..duno wat make u d so...my heart rili ful wif ???..i hope i ll noe tatz 1 day.....bt i hope tat anz won make me shock...cz i rili nid n wan a peace life...

Hehe..tiz is the pic tat take frm bobo dob party in lcci.

our ass leng leh??haha..du envy ya..

2dy i m absent 2 skul...

i m sick er...me ald sick since laz fri er..i tink ntg geh...bt nt everyting lik i tink so ez er...sun i tt steven..thr so cold la..omg..i 4gt 2 brg my sweater summore..tiz time i old dou wana freze la..haiz..open tissue factory agn ler...til..2dy i g n c doc..i nt jz sore throat..flu..cough..oli..doc say i nt enuf blood..kenot gek if nt ll pengsan..doc ask me..d more exercise r..haiz....sick rili take my life...exam stil goin on r...vry xin ku r...2mr stil gt kimia paper3 r..............oh my gosh..........

family??marry??children??home??

....haiz...i on9 oli noe..my gor geh family wan a broke..wat mean family??a gang of ppl tat gt related in blood tatz cal family??same surname den cal family??sumtime i rili nt total und tat word family meanz abt??tat day my gor told me hiz mum n dad goin 2 brk..haiz...wen i heard tat...agn tiz hapen among my frenz..lucky my family nt lik tat oli r..if nt..i oso duno i ll hw r..lucky my gor n hiz gor gor..jie jie..vry independant oli..if nt my gor jiao cham ler...b4 v mary..v nt should tink abt our future 1st wan meh??wan mary den mary r??afta mary..b4 gv birth 2 the child..nt mz tink abt it wan meh??child is the gift frm god..nt meh??afta u al brk up..u la geh child hw wor??hv u al tink of them??b human cnt so selfish geh lo..a warm family oli cn gv tat child a gud enviroment 2 live on n grow....gor..hapi 2 hear tat u done wat u wana 2 done 4 ur family..gor..u din owe me..tatz wat i cn d 4 u oli..u treat me gud..i mei treat u gud lu..taz jz fair 4 me n u o..so...no nid thx..u din owe me at al...

worst............bt i ll try la..........

my 5th post...
haiz...2mr add math ler...hw r...yao gt 0 meh??i du1 leh...bt wat 2 d??i dou duno at al r..
add math n chemistry jz lik alien language 4 me lehh.....nvm ler...i osso ll try my bez wan geh...wen f4..my add math n chemistry oso nt tat bad gah..nw rrrrrrrrr...haizz...i duno wat it talking at al lo....spe sure fail jo geh ler....suan la...........duno oso nid try geh.............

....wil he bck???

my 4th post..
jz paz geh sunday...rili shock me...sat me n siu wai on9...v met aaron n boon...tiz time let me fel tat i vry hate boon..i shame on myself tat c wrg a ppl 4 so lng time..bt nw i noe it ald..although tatz a bit 2 late...bt nt vry late yt..unlez i notice it...i saw aaron on9...i hope 2 chat wif him..bt....i nt dare 2 d so..so..i ask siu wai 2 join me n him..tat meanz 3 of us chat..frm tat second...imt heart beat increase......so lng time din saw n chat wif him ald...finaly gt tiz chance jo..bt jz few sentences..his line drop ald..me dam disapointed.........tat time almost 2am pluz..siu wai say tat she done wrg agn.........bt i fel so thxful 2 her..........if nt her..i tink i nt dare 2 chot him..ever a hihi..b4 i g n slp..i saw his msg...i so surprisure...tat he tel me tat his line is disconnected...bt tat i tink he du1 2 choy me r...at the sametime..my mind is turning agn...y he 1 xplain 2 me..i noe tats jz a normal ques..mayb i 2 sensetive jo...he date me out 4 yumcha on sun afte 1pm..
1pm??i m tting leh..hw 2 g wor..my claz end at 2.30pm leh...he ask me 2 wait hiz newz..bt almost 2pm tat time..he msg n told me tat ask my mum 2 fetch me bk........my mud geting worst n worst..coz...i wait 4 tiz date vry lng time ago jo.............bt...dissapointed oso..........afta hving lunch..i paln 2 study my sj..bt...i no mud 2 study at al..so..i watch dvd lu..me fal aslp at sofa...sudenly..gt a ppl cum in...............he cum ald!!omg....y he ll cum geh..hak dou me leh..me vry hapi 2 c n chat wif him...v chat 4 2hrz plus..den he g hum lu..omg............my fel lik cuming bk ald.....cnt!!!cnt!!!!i mz let him g...he jz my fren...jz a listener 4 me...he treat me gud jz lik torture me............cz he ald gt gf.....i told myself agn n agn...cnt luv bk him....he nt bolonged 2 me anymore...let him g.............bt..tatz...........hard...........4...me...........

wat a stupid test...............omg..

omg lo.............i nvr take a exam b4 til lik tat leh...2day exam subs r..add math paper2 n sejarah paper2...normally i ll studt hard 4 my sj geh..tiz time gt study bt a few oli....my addmath more worst...duno at al leh...i jz copy the quez den paz up jo..i nvr done tat b4..bt if i du d so i ll rili duno wat 2 write ald..so i chose 2 d so...my sj nid 2 write 3 esei..bt i jz write 1 oli..tiz time my exam sure fail wif fiying colour wan jo.....cham leh..2mr bio paper1 n paper2 r....cham agn r...

....wat stupid me???

my 2nd post
......haiz....2day math exam paper1..rili gek 4 me r..my paper2 ald vry worst geh la..den i hope paper1 cn hlp me gt more markz..bt i vry kles r..a vry ez ques..i gt wrg wor..izzzit stupid la..my exam rili make me noe tat i rili vry stupid r..wat oso du noe r..cn say wat i noe is more than wat i du noe er..my spm trial ald vry near n cuming soon bt....i wat oso hvn study..waat stil duno r..i promise i ll try my bes bt.....y i so lazi geh..owaz jz eat slp shpin tv....other frm tat i lik wat oso duno jo...wat a life tat i lead 2...i rili hope i cn gt a life tat wat life i wan..i nid..tat ful wif happinezz..sucessful..n otherz..bt...tat lik so far my me........a far far n further way....uh??is ok ler..i try my bez 2 gt my lovely lik ler...wat i wan..wat i nid mz gt wif my own hand..i du1 2 depant on others anymore...i blive i cn.....

wen i heard sumting...my mud...

21:47..060509(wed)
tiz is my 1st blog..act i din tink b4 2 cre8 a blog 4 myself..2day i hear sumting tat i din wish 2 hv b4..i stil rmb i promise myself mz live sucessfully..2 d sumting 2 prove tat our galz r alive..our mz nt b a weaker in life..watever guys cn d..our galz mz oso to d it..i hv tiz tinkin afta i brk wif my ex..ex??tat ppl hu let me alone..tat ppl hu let me cry on..tat guy tat never ever let me gt in 2 crazy..mad..he oso a guy tat let me wake up..i vry vry hate him since he plan 2 let me dwn..i told myself mz b more tabah afta i lost him..i vry hate myself y i ll let such a gud guy 2 leave me??izit i d anyting wrg..NO..I M RITE..HE LET ME DWN IS WAT HE GOIN TO LOST..HE SURE LL GUILTY AFTA I SUCCESS..I OWAZ TINK HE IS BAD GUY..he hurt me so deep..i should hate him..m i rite 2 d lik tis..no..i m totaly wrg..wat i done..wat i heard..wat i tink b4..all oso a failure in my life..i m wrg..y everytime wen i tink tats a gud ppl..gud fren..gud listener..bt.....afta a period of time...i oli ll noe thy r a bad ppl tat i trust wrg..y mz i done sumting wrg oli i noe it..i noe as ppl saying..nvr try nvr noe..bt.....is tat 2 much 4 me?????...afta my ex..i strt a relation wif my ex's "bes fren"..tat i din tink he ll b a most regretful incent in my life..me owaz tink my ex is a bad guy..wat d done b4 oso bad..wat he wan frm me..tats my tinkin owaz around of my silly mind...bt 2dy i oli noe..i 'guai'wrg jo him....nw i oli noe wat he hvn done oso cz my reaction..tat day he told me"he yue lai yue nt und me.."my heart tink..u sure nt und me cz ur heart ald gt another gal..hw cum ll und me la..u!!sui yan..bt.....tatz totaly wrg i tink so..at the same moment..my heart is total crack....my mud getin worse n worst...i stil rmb..tat day he brk wif me is on wed..wen i wake up cz him oso wed..tat meanz 2dy..my blog is strtin..i noe wat m i d nw i useless..cz i ald done 2 much wrg tings..tat ald cnt gt forgiving frm u..i oso noe....i own u 2 much..haizzz.....2mr is mt math exam jo...me rili no mud study anymore........i tink me rili nid 2 wake up.....KIT YIN!!!!!!WAKE UP!!!IF NT LL B 2 LATE...!!DU K SO MUCH!!!ALL ALD PASS...bt......me rili cn make it??i strt doubt abv myself..cn i afford tat..my heart gt alot alot alot tings 2 say...bt......hu cn i say 2???hu cn i rili blive in??my fren???i rili duno.....t.t....my mind strtin tink bk u....aaron...i rmb...laz time wenever i upset..i nt hapi..i sad..i mad..i crazy..bt u r owaz thr 4 me....bt nw nt anymore...sry 4 anyting i done 2 hurt u b4...i noe is 2 late..i noe sry cnt gt anyting bk...bt i rili duno hw should i done...wat should i done...tats no way tat cn express my feeling.................t.t........i nid 2 say...thx tat let me wake up....sry tat i guai u....me fel tat me rili din hv the require 2 b ur gf anymore........i wish u.......