wen i heard sumting...my mud...

21:47..060509(wed)
tiz is my 1st blog..act i din tink b4 2 cre8 a blog 4 myself..2day i hear sumting tat i din wish 2 hv b4..i stil rmb i promise myself mz live sucessfully..2 d sumting 2 prove tat our galz r alive..our mz nt b a weaker in life..watever guys cn d..our galz mz oso to d it..i hv tiz tinkin afta i brk wif my ex..ex??tat ppl hu let me alone..tat ppl hu let me cry on..tat guy tat never ever let me gt in 2 crazy..mad..he oso a guy tat let me wake up..i vry vry hate him since he plan 2 let me dwn..i told myself mz b more tabah afta i lost him..i vry hate myself y i ll let such a gud guy 2 leave me??izit i d anyting wrg..NO..I M RITE..HE LET ME DWN IS WAT HE GOIN TO LOST..HE SURE LL GUILTY AFTA I SUCCESS..I OWAZ TINK HE IS BAD GUY..he hurt me so deep..i should hate him..m i rite 2 d lik tis..no..i m totaly wrg..wat i done..wat i heard..wat i tink b4..all oso a failure in my life..i m wrg..y everytime wen i tink tats a gud ppl..gud fren..gud listener..bt.....afta a period of time...i oli ll noe thy r a bad ppl tat i trust wrg..y mz i done sumting wrg oli i noe it..i noe as ppl saying..nvr try nvr noe..bt.....is tat 2 much 4 me?????...afta my ex..i strt a relation wif my ex's "bes fren"..tat i din tink he ll b a most regretful incent in my life..me owaz tink my ex is a bad guy..wat d done b4 oso bad..wat he wan frm me..tats my tinkin owaz around of my silly mind...bt 2dy i oli noe..i 'guai'wrg jo him....nw i oli noe wat he hvn done oso cz my reaction..tat day he told me"he yue lai yue nt und me.."my heart tink..u sure nt und me cz ur heart ald gt another gal..hw cum ll und me la..u!!sui yan..bt.....tatz totaly wrg i tink so..at the same moment..my heart is total crack....my mud getin worse n worst...i stil rmb..tat day he brk wif me is on wed..wen i wake up cz him oso wed..tat meanz 2dy..my blog is strtin..i noe wat m i d nw i useless..cz i ald done 2 much wrg tings..tat ald cnt gt forgiving frm u..i oso noe....i own u 2 much..haizzz.....2mr is mt math exam jo...me rili no mud study anymore........i tink me rili nid 2 wake up.....KIT YIN!!!!!!WAKE UP!!!IF NT LL B 2 LATE...!!DU K SO MUCH!!!ALL ALD PASS...bt......me rili cn make it??i strt doubt abv myself..cn i afford tat..my heart gt alot alot alot tings 2 say...bt......hu cn i say 2???hu cn i rili blive in??my fren???i rili duno.....t.t....my mind strtin tink bk u....aaron...i rmb...laz time wenever i upset..i nt hapi..i sad..i mad..i crazy..bt u r owaz thr 4 me....bt nw nt anymore...sry 4 anyting i done 2 hurt u b4...i noe is 2 late..i noe sry cnt gt anyting bk...bt i rili duno hw should i done...wat should i done...tats no way tat cn express my feeling.................t.t........i nid 2 say...thx tat let me wake up....sry tat i guai u....me fel tat me rili din hv the require 2 b ur gf anymore........i wish u.......